just a thought: #30

by iren monkey

it’s really sad to watch people go through pain over and over again…

my heart goes out to my friends who were around during my dark days.  i don’t know how they were able to stomach watching me sink into the depths where they couldn’t reach me.  i remember throwing myself into work until i just ran autopilot — and dreading days off because i knew it would mean that i would have to actually feel my pain and think about my life.  i see pictures of myself during that time and i don’t know how i had the strength to stand at 79 pounds of pure skin and bones, not to mention, carry 100 tons of my burdens.

i never thought that i could ever feel like myself again…

if you ever find yourself lost and you can’t find your way back, just remind yourself that the journey isn’t over…and there will be more chapters that your life will write that will bring you back home.  i know it sounds cliché, but be your own best weapon, not your own worst enemy.  there’s nothing stronger than free will and determination — so don’t let anything get in the way of your choice to look out for #1.

love yourself, my friends.

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